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ally

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[30 Aug 2004|11:44am]

[ mood | cheerful ]

Okay My parents are selling the apartment and I have to get rid of my bunny.. Does anyone want a free bunny? It's gray and white and is the cutest thing in the world.. It has little ears that stick up and it comes with free bedding, food, a cage and water.. The pet store wont take it cause its like a year and a couple of months.. =..( but please leave me a comment or im me if you are interested..

what else is new? Went to Rich's this weekend and it was soo much fun.. Had to go home Sunday as always.. I hate saying bye on Sunday's cause I do it twice and the first time is bad enough.. grr.. But this weekend I get to see him till Monday so yay!

Good news I might get hired at my internship so keep your fingers crossed I love it there, the people and the chef is awesome. I'm learning so much...

I guess thats it for now, so laters..

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[08 Jul 2004|12:45pm]

[ mood | ecstatic ]

[ music | maroon 5 " harder to breathe" ]

Well I went to my externship site and it is so nice there.. I don't know the people yet but they all seemed nice. It's a kinda big kitchen you get to work pretty much right at your station and there is room in the back if your doing like salads and stuff.. Chef Bonner is gonna have me working at every station to get the feel of things.. I start this wed. at like 9:30 am.. Ugh I'm so nervous, I don't know why everyone says im a good cook and all. I guess because this is what im gonna be doing for the rest of my life.. hehe All is good though.

Been sleeping at Rich's house a lot. Last week I was there for like 3 days, would have been six but I had to go home cause I had the interview and I wanted to see the Billy Joel Tribute band in LI and Rich couldn't come, Eric was here and he wasn't seeing his gf so he's staying for like 2 extra days haha..

There's this lyric in the song "Only The Good Die Young" by Bill Joel and it says, " You'r mom never cared for me, did she ever say a prayer for me?" and me and my mom look at each other and was just like Ray lol.. Then my mom and I gave each other like a high five.. It was soo funny..

Anyway so im sleeping over at Rich's till Friday, cause he has to go to Atlantic City with Eric and stay there till the weekend so I dont think im gonna see him till like tues or Friday, dont know yet.. Some bad news my parents are most likely moving to FL once I graduate. =( Kinda sucks but at least I will have a place to visit in the summer and on holidays.. They don't know where in FL yet but there gonna be looking.. Where am I going you might ask... Well my mom said that if I had a place to stay in NY I wouldn't have to move, and I found a place.. I'm gonna be staying with Rich and his family, his mom pretty much said it was okay. Her words were " when they decide to move will talk about it" which in Elle terms means.. yea don't worry she can stay here.. She als said I can take over there kitchen yay! I love this kitchen just wish it was a little bigger.. Brooke (his sister) said that I can take over it too! I feel so at home here I love it..

Mine and Rich's relationship couldn't be any more perfect everything is going soo good between us =D.. I still feel terrible for what had happened with us in the past.. But i guess past is past and not to worry cause where together now.. I'm soo much happier now then I was before and my mom trusts him.. He was even able to spend the night.. I almost died right there when they said he could.. Cuase when I was with Ray they would be like no boys and you cant stay there and all this shit.. With Rich there like sure you can go there and he can stay here not a problem.. My dad just said we cant sleep in the same room, which is fine cause that would be weird anyway cause I don't have my own room to begin with haha..

Well this enough for now, I still have to brush my teeth, Im waiting for rich to get outta the shower to do so.. Just woke up not too long ago haha.. Well talk to ya'll later! ;)

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[02 Jul 2004|01:34pm]

[ mood | cheerful ]

Well last night was a great night pretty much.. Rich came over like kinda early in the morning because he went into the city with me, It was me, my dad, and Rich we all went into the city to see where my externship site was.. they both made me walk up steps that never freakin ended.. lol..

Then we cam home and order some pizza which was soo good.. I didn't give a guy a tip cause I thought I did and I'm not good with money at all lol.. I made dinner for my mom, dad, Ash, Rich and me.. Ugh it came out soo good and I was so proud of myself hehe.. I also gave Rich some to bring home cause im nice like that haha.. Hmmm.. Saturday is coming tomorrow and I'm gonna get drunk so yaya I also get to sleep with Rich wahoo.. I'm probably gonna get the best sleep something I haven't done in awhile.. I just can't get all that comfortable..

Anyway im hanging out with rich now.. so im out

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[23 Jun 2004|09:38pm]

[ mood | ecstatic ]

Yay great day today, actually i had the best week.. Haven't updated this in awhile sooo.. here we go..

Lori got ingaged to Jared and im gonna be her maid of honor, where im getting the money from I dunno lol.. Ummm.. got my grades from this semester and I got 1 A and 2 A-'s with perfect attendence.. LOL Next semester, which is my last Im getting all A's and making deans list.. I wanna graduate with a 4.0, well thats my goal anyway..

Been seeing Rich a lot wahoo! Best feeling in the world is when im with him .. I dunno its just really nice to have someone that cares for me like he does.. =) He's gonna be moving like Friday to East Medow which means I get to see him even more hahahah!!! Eventually I think im gonna be going there cause of reasons haha.. I dont think he would mind it though.. we have everything figured out.. Im gonna cook and Eric(his best friend) is gonna clean haha.. ohh and play video games..

Umm.,. i think thats it for now rich is here and im not seeing him till Sunday so im out.. laters!

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[19 May 2004|11:16pm]

Ahhh I can't stand some people.. I'm beyond annoyed right now.. GRRRR!!

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[06 May 2004|01:13pm]

My emotions have been off a little because of my period. Just my emotions get very hectic. I'll be very happy or just very sad. Ugh I hate cramps. Also on top of that im kinda sick too, which freakin sucks.

Anyway Ray went into the city with Gina and her bf, because I think where she works there going to give him a job. Yesterday he asked me to go with him, so this morning he woke me up about 10:30. I went over and Gina said there wasnt enough room in the car, so now im here till he gets home. Ray knows im a little pissed off, so whatever.

well anyway im out gotta find something to eat before i pass out haha.. laters

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[08 Apr 2004|01:03am]

[ mood | tired ]

I have nothing to do, I have to go into the city later today to help chef. I think I have to be there at like 12-1, then tomorrow I have to be there at like 8:30. On saturday I might go into central park and help chef out there too. I might as well being I have nothing else better to do.

Last sunday was Ray's 20th yay! We went to ground Round, It was Gina(his sister), Dave(her bf), Fay, some other girl I forgot her name, Joel, Nick, Slacker, Piggy, Ray, and me. It was a lot of fun, Ray was happy cause I actually finished a meal =). Then on tuesday, he left to go to FL for freakin 11 days. I miss him so much I want him to come back to NY so i can see him.

I been trying to do stuff to keep myself occupied and pass the time but nothing is working. I wanna start workingout cause I been gaining which is not good, I gonna start doing situps and do like a walk a mile tape or something. Cause I dunno if me and linz can do the tred together, I have to ask her. If not then I will do tapes and situps. Maybe when it gets nicer go for a bike ride.

Well im gonna go cause im a bit tired so im out..

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[01 Apr 2004|02:16pm]

[ mood | ditzy ]

I went into the city yesterday to get my offical classes and books for the Spring semester. Ray came with me to keep me company, felt kinda bad cause he had to wake up early and he didn't get to sleep till late. But I did get everything I needed =). I should have had off next week there was no point for school to start this Monday. It's like Spring break all over again. haha I only have class this week on Monday and the rest I stay home yay!!!:D

Anyway where coming home from the city and Ray was like that in another yr he's thinking about going into the Army, and me being the dumbass that I am started to cry and was like noo don't go, plus I couldn't freakin stop crying. Ahhh what is wrong with me? But anyway we get to Main and we go out for some subway and I finished my whole sandwhich haha (Ray was very impressed). We went back to my house to watch some war movie but didn't finish it, cause we went back to his house. He was making some type of joke about the Army thing again and I started to cry again, geez im such a dork hah. Why I was crying I dunno but Ray had to calm me down all over again hah. It's not for another yr anyway.

Ummm.. Ray is gonna dye his hair blond today, I wanna do that =( I miss my blond hair so much. But he's gonna go for a trim and then go and dye it. He looks really good too because I have a picture with him and his blond hair and it looks good, only if he shaved mmmm..lol >br>
Went to do my finicinal aid today wahoo for the summer semester, which is my last semester. Very happy about that. I wish my dad would get a freakin job already cause things aren't lookin to good, it's getting me kinda depressed. =..( On a lighter note Ray's b-day is in 2 days yay! He's turning 20, I think he wants to go out to eat and I have no money damnit. I think he's going to pay for me though, I feel bad though cause its like his day and he has to pay for me and I cant even get him a gift =/, So I am kinda upset about that too. Damn i forgot what I was gonna say, if I think of it I will write it till then laters..

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[26 Mar 2004|09:26pm]

[ mood | cheerful ]

Well Im out of school for Spring Break and I took all my finals. I got very good news too, my cooking written I got an 89 in and cooking practical I got an 85, then in my pastry practical I got a 96. Wahoo! I think Chef Molloy (pastry chef) said everyone did bad on the written but im not gonna fail so yay! Phew I'm soo glad thats its over, I get very edgey finals week.

Thursday I got to hangout with my buddy Rich yay! I haven't seen him in like forever, I think where gonna hangout like this Wed. It was cool we watched a movie and just hungout and talked. =) I had a lot of fun.

Today was pretty much the best day, It was Ray's and mines 4 month anniversery. I met him at the movie theather at about 11 and he made us breakfast and then about 12 went back to the theather to get scooby doo 2 tickets. I had to pay like $7 in quarters, I felt like such an idiot. The movie was soo cute, I liked it better then the first but thats just me. We then went back to his house where we watched another movie, called "WaterWorld" it wasnt that bad. I also made us lunch. We cuddle and hungout the whole day, the only thing I didnt liek was that we went to his friends house. Thats where I am now, Blah I just want one whole day without computer, gameboy or his friends... hmmm.. Guess im wishing for too much.

So tomorrow im off to my grandmothers house I hate going cause there is nothing to do but I do like seeing her. oh bother..

Well im out laters...

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[21 Mar 2004|01:14pm]

Blah! im pretty bored right now, there is nothing to do. I'm waiting for Ray to call me, I think he is coming here but I dunno when haha.

Well I got just this week and then I get my spring vacation yay! I need a break hah. I'm soo nervous about my finals eep.. I know everything I just get nervous when the test is based on half your grade hah. I dont wanna get left back ugh okay well my mom wants to get on so i'll write in this later..

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[17 Mar 2004|11:33pm]

piffff.. I'm so bored there is nothing to do, was suppose to see Ray today but he never called me. I didn't feel like calling him cause I thought he would call me. But nope he was all like well you call me, you always call me its like written. Why cant you call me for once?!! ugh well whatever I don't care all that much I didnt wanna go out anyway. It was to cold and I didn't feel like walking in the snow.. I would have gotten annoyed and its cold. So I think im seeing him tomorrow.

Im so thirsty and tired and bored. I have to talk to Linz about some things. hmm wrote her an e-mail today so will see what to do.I miss hanging out with her, hehe. where both just doing our own thing. Well next week is my last week yesss!!! I need a vacation so bad. I feel so dead once I come home ugh. Why do I wanna go into cooking again? oh yea I freakin love it especially when I do something right. I just always feel like im not gonna make it big, that Im wastin all this money and I wont get anywhere. I guess if I keep thinking like that I wont I have to think postive mmm, anyway im out..

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[03 Mar 2004|09:00pm]

I found this from courts site so im gonna do it cause im bored and still cold and hungry..

FULL NAME: Alexandria Hillary Randall
2. WHO WERE YOU NAMED AFTER?:
3. SCHOOL: Art Institute of NY
5. NICKNAMES: Ally, Allykat,Baby, and little one..hah
6. BIRTHDAY: Feburary 1, 1985
7. ZODIAC SIGN: aquarius
8. AGE: 19
9. GRADE: 13 (college)
10. HOMETOWN: queens, ny
11. HEIGHT: 5'1
12. HAIR COLOR: dirty blond
13. EYE COLOR: dark brown
14. DESCRIBE YOURSELF: sweet, funny, cute, good listener, easy to talk to, shy at times, sarcastic, down to earth, generous,senstive, a dork haha, a loser haha...
15. SIBLINGS: Courtney[15] Ashley[11]
16. OLDEST, YOUNGEST, OR MIDDLE: Oldest
17. PETS: two cats and a bunny
18. AOL SCREEN NAME: xxpixiedustxx69, toxicxparadisex
19. LAST CD YOU BOUGHT: Birtney's cd.
20. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE THEATER: The Passion of Christ
21. LAST MOVIE YOU RENTED: hmm.. i dunno
22. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MATH?: not at all
23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND?: liana, em, linz, or ray..
24. FAVORITE LYRIC: " Everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings I feel so small I guess I need you baby. And everytime I see you in my dreams, I see your face its haunting me, I guess I need you baby. ~Britney
26. BEST GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND YOU HAD: I'm in one now and he's the best I have. hehe I love him..
27. DO YOU DO ANY DRUGS?: nope.
28. HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE IN YOUR ADDRESS BOOK: umm.. i dunno not many probably
29. ARE YOU ON ANY SPORTS TEAM?: haha nope not at all
30. HOW LONG ARE YOU IN THE SHOWER?: 15 mins probably by myself, with my baby umm 1/2 hour..
31. WORST FEAR: getting really fat. death. being alone. Ray breaking up with me hah.
32. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: being in Love and some1 who loves you.
33. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: umm..when the person you love breaks your heart.
34. DO YOU HAVE A JOB?: nope. i need one though. lol
35. WHAT COLLEGE DO YOU GO TO OR WANT TO GO TO?: I go to the Art Institute to learn how to become a chef.

* FAVORITES*
36. SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: hah cooking, thats all i do.
37. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT: umm.. it was math..
38. SPORT: none
39. TEACHER: Chef Keenan
40. GAME: taboo
41. BAND: umm.. dunno
42. ACTRESS: katie homes, sarah michelle gellar
43. ACTOR: chad michael murry and shane west <33
44. MOVIE: a walk to remember, finding nemo, pirates of the carribean.
45. TV SHOW: buffy(when it was on), dawson's creek(when that was on) 2 and half men, CSI Miami, cold case,newlyweds, tru calling..
46. STORE: bath and body, and clothing stores.
47. SOUND: uh. just music in general lol.
48. SMELL: watermellons
49. PLACE TO GO ON VACATION?: anywhere on a cruise. mm.
50. SCARY MOVIE: gingersnaps, terror at the opera, black christmas, silent night,deadly night
51. VIDEO: no clue.
52. BOOK: a walk to remember, and this other 1
53. MONTH: June
54. CLOTHES: drawstring pants, pjs, and sweatshirts
55. FOOD: pizza and salads
56. COLOR: blue, red and black
57. ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE: umm.. smernoff, or smernoff ice,bercardi is good heh, and wine coolers, oo and that tropical berry zefendale.
58. GUM: winterfresh, big red
59. DAY: friday

*WAT DO YOU THINK OF *
61. BILL CLINTON: uhm.. i don't think he did anything wrong, cause people do that stuff all the time.. just he was the president and they made a big deal.
62. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: i think it could happen..maybe..
63. ABORTION: im pro, its a girls body and she can do what she feels is right.
64. TEENAGE SMOKING: it doesnt bother me really. But I wont do it.
65. EATING DISORDERS: umm.. they are not cool, and it sucks if you have one, talk to some1 cause its hard when your alone in it.. =/
66. MARILYN MANSON?: scares the crap outta me. good lord, he's ugly.
67. GUY BANDS: umm.. dunno
68. DEATH: i'm terrified of it.
69. TITANIC: i saw the movie like 50 billion times.. lol.
70. JERRY SPRINGER: it's bullshit, but it's soo funny lol
71. SUICIDE: its a cry for attenetion, its just giving up..
72. SOUTH PARK: funny shit, but i barely watch it

* WHEN YOU HEAR THIS NAME, WHO/what DO YOU THINK OF? *
74. RYAN: phillphe
75. BOB: sagat
76. AMY: from buffy the witch i didnt really like her
77. KATHY: griffen
78. STEPHEN: dunno
79. STEPHANIE: don't like that name, but i think of that girl on full house
80. BRITTANY: pretty
81. JACK: and jill whent up the hill to fetch a pail of water..
82. JESSICA: simpson
83. HEATHER: umm dunno
84. MELANIE: the girl next door to my grandmas house
85. ALYSSA:dunno
86. SARAH: michelle gellar
87. JAMES: van der beek
88. CHRISTOPHER: chris..
89. KAREN: oh lord i dont know..

* THIS OR THAT *
90. APPLES OR BANANAS:bananas
91. APPLES OR ORANGES: oranges
92. RED OR BLUE: red
93. WAL-MART OR TARGET: target
94. SUMMER OR WINTER: summer!!!!
95. SANTA OR RUDOLPH: rudolph
96. HIGH SCHOOL OR COLLEGE: collage
97. PAPER OR PLASTIC: paper
98. DEAF OR BLIND: deaf. cause then i wouldn't have to hear maxines any kids annoying voice and i can learn sign language.. but both are bad..
99. TRUTH OR DARE: truth maybe
100. NIGHT OR DAY: night
101. CHOCOLATE CHIP OR OATMEAL RAISIN: chocolate chip
102. OCEAN OR POOL: ocean
103. CAKE OR PIE: cake.
104. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: vanilla
105. BOXERS OR BRIEFS: boxers
106. PANTIES OR THONGS: thongs
107. CATS OR DOGS: puppies
108. AOL 4.0 OR 5.0: 5.0 i don't remember 4
109. GUN OR KNIFE: probably gun if i had to choose
110. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST: pancakessss. yum.
111. BITTER OR SWEET: sweet.
112. SILVER OR GOLD: silver
113. GOLD OR WHITE GOLD: white gold
114. DIAMONDS OR PEARLS: diamonds!
115. HUGS OR KISSES: hugs are the best!
116. CROUTONS OR BACON BITS: croutons
117. SHAKEN OR STIRRED: shaken
118. DEMOCRAT OR REPUBLICAN: democrat i guess
119. ARMAGEDDON OR INDEPENDENCE DAY: armageddon
120. BATMAN OR SUPERMAN: batman
121. SUN OR MOON: moon
122. PENCILS OR PENS: pens
123. SUNSET OR SUNRISE: sunset
124. X'S OR O's: bothhh. xoxo. hehe.
125. CRUSHED OR CUBED: cubed
126. SHOWERS OR BATHS: i would prefer a bath but havent had one in a long time.. so shower
127. KETCHUP OR MUSTARD:mustard i hate ketchup
128. GLASSES OR CONTACTS: contacts
129. BE CALLED OR CALL SOMEONE: be called
130. DRIVER OR PASSENGER: passenger. less work for me lmao
131. SUNNY OR RAINY: sunny
132. PAGER OR CELL PHONE: cell phones
133. LOOKS OR PERSONALITY: personality
134. MALL OR MOVIES: movies
135. BLACK OR WHITE: white
136. AIRPLANE OR TRAIN: train
137. LOSE A TOE OR FINGER: toe. at least they're hidden in ur shoess.
138. PIERCED NOSE OR TONGUE: tongue
139. WHOLE MILK OR SKIM MILK: whole
141. SIMPLE OR COMPLICATED: simple
142. LAW OR ANARCHY: anarchy
143. FLOWERS OR ANGELS: flowers
144. GREY OR GRAY: gray
145. READ OR WRITE: write
146. COLOR OR BLACK AND WHITE PHOTOS: black and white,they look nicer
147. M&M'S OR SKITTLES: skittles
148. RAP OR ROCK: rock
149. STAY UP LATE AND WAKE UP LATE OR GO TO BED EARLY AND WAKE UP EARLY: stay up late and wake up late
150. TV OR RADIO: radio
151. BLUE OR BLACK: blue
152. WHAT CAME FIRST THE CHICKEN OR THE EGG: chicken
153. HOT OR COLD: warm
154. BIG OR LITTLE TOWEL: big lol.
155. TALL OR SHORT MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: definitely tall
156. EMERALD OR RUBY: emerald. it looks prettier
157. SEX IN THE MORNING OR NIGHT: night..
158. LEFT OR RIGHT: right
159. 10 ACQUAINTANCES OR 1 BEST FRIEND: one best friend
160. HIGH OR DRUNK: drunk.
161. GREEN BEANS OR CARROTS: green beans
163. LOVE OR LUST: love
164. KIDS OR NO KIDS: kids
165. HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL: half empty
166. HARD COVER BOOKS OR SOFT: i dont give a shit lol. soft are cheaper though lmao.
167. NEWSPAPER OR MAGAZINE: magazine definitely.
168. SHOES OR SANDALS: shoes
169. WONDER OR AMAZEMENT: umm.. amazement
170. RED CAR OR WHITE CAR: red
171. HAPPY AND POOR, SAD AND RICH, OR HALF AND HALF: half and half
172. SINGING OR DANCING: dancing
173. CORDUROY OR PLAID: plaid
174. HAPPY OR SAD: happy
175. PURPLE OR GREEN: purple
177. PEPSI OR COKE?: pepsi
178. LETTERMAN OR LENO: dont care
179. MIKE or FULLER?: mike
180. SPICE GIRLS OR ALL SAINTS?: spice girls! damn, they kicked ass.
181. BEVERLY HILLS OR DAWSON'S CREEK?:dasswons creek <3
182. 7TH HEAVEN OR PARTY OF FIVE:7th heaven
183. DIET PEPSI OR PEPSI ONE: pepsi one
184. CHOCOLATES OR FLOWERS: flowers
185. SNOWBOARDING OR SKATEBOARDING: skateboarding
186. SKATING OR SURFING: skating
187. TACOS OR BURRITOS: tacos! mm. yummy. lol
188. M&M'S OR REESE'S PIECES:reese's pieces

* DO YOU... *
189. BELIEVE IN HEAVEN AND HELL?:no
190. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ANGELS?: no
191. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS?: no
192. DO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF?: sometimes
193. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?: yea
194. WHAT DO YOU DO THAT MAKES YOUR FRIENDS MAD?: umm.. when i ask to many questions according to ray and when i dont talk a lot.
195. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS DO TO MAKE YOU MAD: depends on the friend.
196. DO YOU HAVE ANY STUFFED ANIMALS?: yea a few
197. DO YOU HAVE ANY BAD HABITS?: doesnt everyone?
198. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE RESTAURANT?: umm.. dunno i dont go to many restaurants
199. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE HANGOUT?: rays house or the park when its warm out
200. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LOVE SONG?: i have way to many of those cause i love them hah
201. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SAD SONG?: have a lot of those too
202. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING AT THIS VERY MOMENT?: im hungry, cold, and how much i love my baby and im glad he is mine and how lucky i am hah..
203. WHAT IS THERE TOO MANY OF?: dunno
204. ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN?: no
205. THE LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED?: mikey mike
206. THE LAST TV SHOW YOU WATCHED: till death do us part.

* HAVE YOU EVER...*
207. BEEN ON A PLANE: yea
208. GONE SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: yea
209. GONE SKINNY DIPPING: no
210. CRIED IN PUBLIC: yea
211. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: of course
212. FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: lmao no.. how the fuck do you do that?!
213. FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: ..no. once again, how do u do that?
214. GONE TO CHURCH: no
215. READ THE BIBLE: not all of it
216. CLIMBED A TREE: you want me to die? lol
218. GONE SKIING: no
219. GONE SNOWBOARDING: nope
220. FELL ASLEEP DURING A SCARY MOVIE: no
221. GONE ALL NIGHT WITHOUT SLEEP: yeaa
222. STAYED UP ALL NIGHT TALKING TO SOMEONE: yeah i miss that
223. BEEN TO CAMP: yeahh
224. PLAYED SOCCER:no
225. BEEN TO A PRO BASEBALL GAME: yeah a couple of times
226. SEEN A PRO BASKETBALL GAME: on tv.. boring
227. KISSED A GUY: yeahh
228. SAT IN A RESTAURANT WITHOUT ORDERING: does mcdonald's or burger king count? lol
229. EATEN SUSHI: yea.
230. EATEN FISH: yup
231. WANTED TO DIE: at one point
232. MET A CELEBRITY: yeahh
233. MET THE PRESIDENT: nope
234. DRIVEN A CAR: noo i wish
235. GONE W/OUT WASHING YOUR HAIR FOR A WEEK: no, never
236. BROKEN SOMETHING VALUABLE?: not that i remember
237. BOUGHT ICE CREAM FROM AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: he stops right in front of my house, literally.
238. USED YOUR PARENTS CREDIT CARD?: nope
239. BEEN SCARED TO GET A SHOT: of course lol.
240. GOTTEN A CAVITY: yeah
241. SHOPPED AT ABERCROMBIE & FITCH: no
242. SHOPPED AT GAP: yea
243. SHOPPED AT OLD NAVY: yeah
244. THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE: not thought, am in love..
245. HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: once, it was so gay
246. WATCHED MTV AT 4 IN THE MORNING: i've watched alot of things at 4 in the morning.
247. TIPPED OVER A PORTABLE TOILET: no, but it sounds funny.
248. MADE PRANK PHONE CALL: yea lots..
249. CAUGHT A FISH: nope never went fishing
250. SNUCK OUT OF YOUR HOUSE: yea
251. BEEN HURT BY A GUY/GIRL YOU LOVED: oh too many times.
252. GONE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY: yes. cananda
253. WET THE BED: when i was like 2 or 3. lol
254. ROLLED SOMEONE'S HOUSE: i dunno what that means
255. HAD YOUR HOUSE ROLLED: look above
256. BROKEN THE LAW?: yea
257. RAN FROM THE COPS: nope
258. STOLE SOMETHING: yeah but i dont remember how old or when
259. KILLED SOMEONE IN YOUR THOUGHTS?: yeah..
260. BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT: no
261. BEEN BEAT UP: no
262. BEATEN UP SOMEONE: no im too weak
263. SKIPPED SCHOOL: yea just gym but i passed with like an 80 something anyway hah
264. CHEATED ON A TEST: all the time lmao
265. BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK BY A "FRIEND": yes
266. STABBED SOMEONE IN THE BACK: umm i dont think so
267. BUNGEE JUMPED: nope im to scared
268. MADE YOURSELF THROW-UP: no
269. MADE YOURSELF CRY TO GET OUT OF TROUBLE: yeah all the time
270. HAVE YOUR TONSILS OR APPENDIX REMOVED: nope, neither.
271. TAKEN A PICTURE OF YOURSELF WITH A MILK MUSTACHE AND SENT IT TO MILK PEEPS: ..wtf? no.
272. SAID " I LOVE YOU" AND NOT MEANT IT: nope
273. GOTTEN INTO A FIGHT WITH YOUR DOG, CAT, FISH, BIRD ETC: no, lol
274. BEEN TO NEW YORK: i fucking live in new york.
275. BEEN TO FLORIDA: yeah
276. CALIFORNIA: nope
277. HAWAII: no
278. MEXICO: no
279. CHINA: no, damnn i need to get away
280. DANCED NAKED: uh. no.
281. HAD A CRAZY DREAM, AND HAVE IT HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE: yeah crazy shit
282. STALKED SOMEONE: haha yeahh
283. HAD A MUD BATH: no
284. WISHED YOU WERE THE OPPOSITE SEX: once in a while
285. HAD AND IMAGINARY FRIEND: no, but i should get one
286. DRANK: yeahh
287. DRUGS: yeah. tried
288. LIED: yeah
289. CLUBBING: no
290. BACK-STABBED SOMEONE: not that i know of
291. BEEN PLAYED: yeah
292. PLAYED SOMEONE: yea, and i feel bad to this day
293. SNUCK OUT: why are the questions repeating themselves? i answered this already.
294. GOT YOUR EAR PIERCED: yeaah
295. WANTED TO JUST SLAP THE HELL OUT OF SOMEONE: all the fucking time.
296. SLAPPED THE HELL OUT OF SOMEONE: danielle
297. ABUSED SOMEONE: never
298. HAVE A CRUSH: had yes
300. STREAKED: no
301. HAD SEX CAUSE YOU NEEDED MONEY: noo
302. HAD SEX: yeah
303. QUESTIONED YOUR FAITH: yea..
304. QUESTIONED YOUR SEXUALITY: nope.

* ARE YOU...*
305. A BOY: no.
306. A GIRL: most definitely.
307. A WUSS: at times i guess.
308. A CLASS CLOWN: nope too quiet
309. A GOODIE-TWO-SHOES: when it comes to my parents yea
310. A DAYDREAMER: yeah
311. A GOOD LISTENER: yeah
312. A PROCRASTINATOR: eh sometimes
313. AN ATHEIST: yeah
314. A HOMOSEXUAL: no
316. AN ALCOHOLIC: haha no
317. A DRUGGIE: nope
318. PILL HEAD: nope
319. WEED HEAD: nopee
320. AN ANGEL FROM HEAVEN: maybe the devil from hell, but to be sweet people said yes hah
321. A PROCRASTINATOR: stop asking the same questions!!

*...FRIENDS...*
321. BEST FRIENDS: omg didnt i answer this.. again.. em, liana, linz, lori and ray
322. CUTEST: ray ha
323. SWEETEST: em
324. MOST INNOCENT: haha none of my friends
325. CUTEST COUPLE: have no idea
325 1/2. UN CUTEST COUPLE: i dunno
326. SMARTEST: lindsey
327. QUIETEST: me haha..
328. LOUDEST: ray and his friends haha
329. WEIRDEST: no1 really
330. NEWEST: umm.. rays buddies i guess.. too many to name sorry
331. HAVEN'T SEEN THE LONGEST (LIVES NEAR YOU): lindsey
332. HAVEN'T SEEN THE LONGEST (LIVES FAR AWAY): rich or mikey mike lives a little far, well for me haha
334. FUNNIEST: all my friends are fucking funny
335. CRAZIEST: dunno
336. HAPPIEST: no1 i know hah
337. FAVORITES: all of them.

*FIRST AND LAST*
342. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU SAW: rays dad
343. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED ON THE PHONE WITH: mikey mike
344. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CRUSH: joe
345. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WENT TO THE MALL: umm like 3 months ago or something
346. WHO DID YOU HAVE YOUR LAST FIGHT WITH: no1
347. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU TOOK A BATH?: shower today, bath i havent had in a long while.. ooo i want 1 now
348. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW: motocross
349. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT YOU SAID "I LOVE YOU TO?: Ray
350. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON TO TELL YOU THEY LOVE YOU?: Ray
351. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SMILE?: Mike
352. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED AND WHY?: a little while ago cause i just had this little nervous breakdown.
353. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO SEE YOU CRY: Ray
354. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY: just me..
355. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON WHO SPENT THE NIGHT AT YOUR HOUSE: i dunno.. i dont even remember..lol
356. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU SHARED A DRINK WITH: umm.. ray, lana, victor, joel, justin..
357. WHO IS THE SEXIEST 12 YEAR OLD YOU KNOW: i dunno.. eww im like 19 yuck!
358. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT TO THE MALL WITH: my dad
359. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON WHO YELLED AT YOU: dad

*PERSONAL*
362. WHO HAVE YOU CRIED TO OR WITH?: myself or ray
363. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: liana or lori or lindsey
364. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT LIFE?: umm.. liana maybe
365. WHO DO YOU HATE?: hah people
366. WHO MAKES YOU ANGRY?: people hehe
367. WHO WOULD YOU WANT TO MEET?: justin timberlake
368. WHO DO YOU MISS?: lori
369. WHO WOULD YOU DIE FOR?: any of my best friendss.
371. WHO IS THE NICEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: umm em
372. WHO IS THE MEANEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: umm.. i have no idea
373. WHO IS THE MOST ATTRACTIVE PERSON YOU KNOW?: My baby im being sweet haha
374. WHO IS THE UGLIEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: umm this girl haha..
376. WHO IS THE CRAZIEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: everyone
377. WHAT DO YOU THINK THE MEANING OF LIFE IS?: still trying to figure that one out.
378. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS MEAN TO YOU?: EVERYTHiNG.

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[03 Mar 2004|08:56pm]

[ mood | hungry ]

im hungry, so so hungry =(.. and i cant eat till i get home.. blah!!! which wont be till i dont even know when.. and im a tad bit cold hahah.. byeee

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[02 Mar 2004|11:45pm]

[ mood | drained ]

Well today was a long day and I'm so happy that it is over. I'm glad I only had like 2 days of school haha. I took my part 1 of my practical from pastry. I got an 84, kinda sad about it, could have done better. I made stupid mistakes but I wasn't into it today I guess cause I was a little sick and tired. My sleeping habits are so poor hah.

Anyway on my pastry practical I had to make: Whip cream, meringue, chocolate chip cookies, paper corcets, and creme anglaise.

I got to go and see Ray today yay! Usually I wont see him till tomorrow but he didn't go somewhere cause he didnt see me yesterday and he felt a little bad about it. That and the fact he was a little sick haha. We are going on 4 months wahoo! This is great never got this far, so im sooo happy. He probably doesnt care as much as do but still wahoo.

Hmmmm...what else? OOOO, this weekend I think I sleepover Em's house and watch scary movies with her brother till like 3am haha and next weekend I get to see Lori and watch season 2 of Dawson's Creek, not like i havent seen them but yay! special features.. I hope they are good :D..

Anyway Im tired so night, sorry I didnt write a lot.. oh well maybe tomorrow

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[25 Feb 2004|11:47am]

[ mood | ecstatic ]

Hey hey every1. Havent written in this for a while. School is going great, I love it so much. Yesterday in cooking we had like this whole breakfast thing. Chef made it like we were in a real dinner and he started throwing out orders. We had to make breakfast for like 3 or 4 classes. I made everything perfectly, yay! I even flipped 2 eggs in the pan and the yolk didnt break.. wahoo!

Then in pastry we made chocolate cake. It came out yummy if you are a major chocolate freak. Mino(a kid in my class) and chef made a bet that I would drop my cake on the floor because you had to pick it up and frost it, and i couldn't do that. So I cheated and put it on something so that it wouldn't drop. Then Mino was like, thanks a lot Ally now I owe chef $20 hahaha.. deserves you right for makeing a bet. =P

I'm going to see Passion of Christ in a little bit with Ray. I probably have my eyes covered the whole time. I'll either be crying or closing them because of the blood. lol But, its mine and Ray's 3 month anniversery yay! He probably doesn't care as much, but i never got to 3 months so im freakin happy. It is very special to me.lol I'm soo happy that I'm with him, I love that kid so much. I gotta give him the chocolate cake cause my family aint that big on chocolate so he cn have it. Give it to his friends and what not.

I love cooking, but i love cooking for him, cause he always tells me how good it is. Like when I cook for other people, I do it because it's my job. But with him I do it because I love him and he tells me how good everything is. So, I get this cute little happy feeling knowing that he likes it and wants to show me off..lol

i gotta go byeee!

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[14 Feb 2004|05:49pm]

[ mood | crappy ]

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! and im freakin hungry!! ahhh!

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[11 Feb 2004|08:52pm]

People suck, thats all i have to say.. and blah.. okay thats it for now hah

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Happy Birthday [01 Feb 2004|12:51pm]

[ mood | cheerful ]

Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to meeeeee, Happy Birthday to me!!! I am 19 yrs old now, I am 19 yrs old now, I am 19 yrs old nowwww, I am 19 yrs old now.. :D

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[23 Jan 2004|02:52pm]

[ mood | frustrated ]

[ music | underneath your clothes ]

A couple of good things are happin this week yay! First off is Linz's b-day and I have to make her that card. I think im also making her an apple pie, but I have to see if I can get everything for it to make it for her. Also the same day, which is this Monday is Ray and mines 2 month anniversery yay! Hopefully we can go for like 3 and so on. hah! Hmmm.. then on the 27th is my buddy Justin's b-day.

Then on Friday I think im going to try and get every1 together to see Rocky Horror or something, depends on if I have money or not. If I don't then I guess its my house watching movies and eating pizza.

On saturday it's off to my grandma's house and im gonna try and get Ray to go cause i just get so bored there. And maybe if he goes I can have some1 to chill with yay! and on Sunday its my b-day yay! I'm turin 19. I think the day of my b-day it's just gonna be Ray and I. I hope we don't have to chill with his friends that day cause I just want it to be me and him and im gonna be kinda annoyed.. He can give up 1 day and not see them.

Cooking is going good, still kinda sad that im not gonna make it, i dont know why. Im so good at what I do and I am gettin good grades, but thats just me hah.

Yesterday it got me kinda annoyed, cause Ray and I were watching a movie and my show was on at like 8. So, asked him if we were going out tonight and he was like no were not. so, I was like okay i can watch it here. Then at like 7:40 he's like put your sneakers on where going to Joels house and you can watch it there. Well first I was annoyed cause he said we werent going anywhere and I knew I wouldnt be able to watch it there. So, we go and guess what, he turns it on and I cant hear it cause they got the music blasting. GRRR! it got me soo annoyed. Then he was in the kitchen playing magic like i wasnt even that. I dont mind that he hungout with them cause whatever its cool. But, if you know your gf isnt gonna do anything and just sit there why dont you just seperate them and her. I dunno maybe things just get to me to easily. 'Cause I like hanging out with them but I hate just sitting there like duh!

He's going to some dance tonight with his friend or whatever. Im not jealous and I dont care if he goes cause I trust him. But, Im just a little uncomfortable with the idea that he's going with some girl that isnt me. Also I wont be there, cause I know hes gonna dance with her and probably other people. Its probably gonna be those type of dances where you have to dance close and yea.. lol.. I know I must sound like the jealous gf or whatever and its just a friend, but I dunno.. Thats like me going to him baby im going to the prom with this guy thats a friend, he probably wont be to comfy about it either. Well I don't know that but maybe. I mean I don't know why im getting so worked up over this, am I the only 1 that feels this way? Am I allowed to be kinda uncomfortable about this idea? I dunno, I know I have nothing to worry about. But, whatever I let him go and have fun, im just being stupid about the whole thing.

I been thinking a lot, i hate that cause then I get kinda depressed for no reason and I wont be thinking about anything at all. Then every1 is like whats wrong and I wont know so i'll just be like nothing, then people get mad annoyed and are like why you liying. When im not cause I dont why im like that, and I dont wanna be like umm well i dunno im just like that. haha oh bother..well anyway im gonna go and write in my xanga thing yay! cause I wrote a lot in this yea its gonna be annoying to read hah. bye bye!

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[14 Jan 2004|05:06pm]

[ mood | happy ]

Okay well I started school, it has been really good so far. Been eating a lot of starch though, which is very uncool. We had to make like 2 dishes with Rice in em and then yesterday we made everything with potatos. I have all the recipies so yay! Now I can make all that stuff at home. I love my school and both my chefs. My pastry chef is the best, I think im like the teachers pet but whatever.. He is soo awesome, I'm having so much fun there haha! anyway it's poem time..YAY!

Speaking Words

I'm going to try to speak the words
that my heart wants you to know
I want you to see what you mean to me
and why I love you so

Nobody can know my thoughts
and touch my soul like you can
No one can melt my heart like you do simply by holding my hand.

With a loving glance or a tender kiss
you make my cares and worries disappear
Warm thoughts of you surrnound me and always keep you near.

I need nothing more from you than this-
to know that you'll always be mine
And the promise of your love in my life- until the end of time.

Yep, aren't I a sweetie haha, that was for my baby. Though I know he wont read it cause he doesnt know my name but whatever.

I been feeling a little weak but whatever, tonight is an all new ang! wahoo! I love that show haha, then its nin with linz. I saw Brit's new video for Toxic it was good, I liked it a lot. yaya so go brit. I want tickets to her up coming tour but i have noo money so grr =(. yes tis sad i know and it sucks but I need a job and i keep bitchin but grrr... anyway Im gonna go and eat.. so yea..laters...

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